White lad Part 1

It was summer of 2001 in the capital and heat had evaporated all the juice of a punk. He was enjoying the most  doleful vacation he ever saw and yet he had a smile on his face. May be it was his nature that made him like this or may be it was what he had become dew to the oppression of life on him. Young lad hadn't seen anything and already he had given up hopes of improvement. It hadn't been much time since he lost his best friend whom he admired and used to share all his backdoor thought which he would not even share with his own. It was the blend of his innocence his entrustment and his attachment that made him go through all this. He had lost his sister. He hadn't imagined that life sometimes could be so hard on people ,death was something he saw for the first time and wished for no more. It was 6 in the morning when his mother woke up and saw him reading a book, it wasn't a normal book it had the most annihilating and the most fallacious ideas a book could ever have and the book was Mein Kampf by adolf hitler. Now as soon as his mom saw that she took away the book from him and kept it somewhere away from his mastery. She was intrusive on the fact that how a boy of such a tender age get hold of such a book and what could have made him do such an animosity. Well it was his condition that made him take rest on ideologies such as those in the book. He had lost all faith in graciousness that he got deviled to do such a thing. Now this was also a proof of how innocent and young his mind was that the worst he could think was to read a book. But one thing was certain his state had open one door and that was the door of rebel. He had stopped doing whatever he was good at and he gave up whatever he knew. His life was majorly effected, his parents had started being called at school. He was involved in all activities that he wasn't known for. This offence wasn't even slightly tolerated by his parents and they had started visiting the idea of sending him to boarding school. Now even the boy had accepted that he had no choice then to give up and obey to parents request of sending him to shimla. Before all this could have happened a family shifted in front of his house and there he saw an angel stepping out. He kept looking at her for a while and he didn't have any idea what emotion he was going through but he felt that it was different from what he was experiencing in last few days. He went running to his mom and asked her too let him go out to play. It was for certain that the reason was not to go out to play it was the idea of magnifying her image. He went close to the boundary wall of her house and tried to catch her attention. Before he could have indulged in something out of the book she only introduced herself. They became good friends and it may have been her friendship that made him change his attitude. His parents saw improvement in him and gave themself's a chance of improving him even more to the state of actuality. And the young 11 year's old boy stayed back in Delhi to see more. 

  

Flashback

Flashback,what does it tell you or i should say what comes in your mind when you come across such an experience. Is it usually a good one or does it turn out to be a bad thought or it may even be both. Flashbacks are never build castle in the air actually they are the proof of our durable memory that we possess. We develop our memory through time and we test them through our recollection. Sometimes it is not easy to recollect and reminiscence on it and sometimes it comes to us without even asking for it. It does not depend on how much reinforced our memory is or our memory cells are. It depends on how that particular instance has affected us and how much importance it had to us. There may be an experience that affected you years ago which is really hard to relieve or there would be an instance that happened to you in the morning which even if you try for it is difficult to recollect. This is how flashbacks work with appropriate time and instance it hits you where it would effect you the most.

Now i am sure you guys must be thinking why i am all about flashbacks today. It is because i was going through  my past in albums and i figured out that i remember a lot of it. Starting from my dad celebrating my first b'day to the pics dad clicked before i left for Bangalore. Honestly i don't remember celebrating my first b'day but i remember the people in it. I could easily recollect all my friends whom i used to play with when i was a kid by kid i meant when i was 4-5 years old ,my mom was young and my dad was handsome still they are but even more young and handsome. I went through all my b'day pics of each year and i was easily able to remember the major part of it. And as i came close to my present i was thinking why all this happened ,why didn't it come to halt why wasn't i able to stop the time. This was all i asked before i turned the last page down.

It may be true that flashbacks are not always great they may even be dreadful. It all depends on how yo make it. If you want your past to be dark and unreminded for then i am sure you will be successful in it. But if you want your past to be fruitful and asking you to bring it back then you have to work upon it. And this is my personal advise that a smile does make it better. Atleast the pic comes out nice.........Above is my pic when i was 1 years old......Wish you guys a very happy new year and may the flashbacks of this year remind you of how great this year was.............   

My Hotbed

Well first of all i would like to broach that how much i have missed you my dear zebra crossing.It was very hard to be separated from you for 22 days and i pledge for the coming 38 days i will try to make it up to you.

Now whats my hotbed,it is where i would like to spend most of my time and where i am usually separated from my stretching thoughts.It is where i created my carnality for you,zebra crossing.Where my innocence saw myself advance to a level of acuity,and yes you guessed it right it's my house.I am back with all the bandages covering my wound and here they seek medicate.When i arrived in Delhi on the morning of 24th December 2011 at around 4 o'clock the only warmth that i got was the thought of being at home.Just imagine the thought was so powerful then how would actuality be.Not only the hug which i got from my family members did the trick it was also the look of my room that got a hint of smile and a drop of tear in my eye.I had never thought that being so far would take me through such a commotion.

When i entered the house it was not only my mom and my dad who were waiting for me it was also my little fellow gang member who hadn't slept through out the night just waiting for me.I had never thought that i made such an importance in anyone's life.And the feeling just makes me animated.I was served with a hot cup of tea as i had entered the house and that tea was the best i had in a while.I could just see there faces how much tired they were but still to show there affection they kept themselfs awake till i actually told them to sleep.I myself was tired but the stress had just vanished looking at there faces.My mother was already busy preparing the schedule of what i would like to eat.It was all perfect.

Then in the night we decided to go out to see the charm of christmas on delhi and knowing the fact that it was delhi's 100 b'day we had to step out.I planned to drive them to DLF mall ,and thank god for me that this time i didn't pull my car on the pathway and they were genuinely impressed by my driving skills.After that was all about shopping which i am not much interested to tell.And as i had expected it was wonderful and alluring as ever.Now the start to this wonderful continuance has been brilliant i expect more to come.........Above is the view of my house.............

Traumatized

Well finally i am able to catch a break and give a little attention to my zebra crossing .I feel now that zebra crossing was a very appropriate name for a guys blog whose progress in life has been slow ,by slow i mean was that he is always got whatever he wanted but with a little inertness and enormous amount of patience shown by him. Being a person who has seen hurdle at ever junction of life and tackled it by just standing in front of problem till it only gives itself up i have started thinking that when will the time come when i will get whatever i wanted without begging to god and asking him for mercy till he actually pity me .Anyways i think this was all my frustration coming out dew to the brilliance shown in the innovation of exam papers by my university .I have learnt to adapt myself with all kind of situations whether it may be the stage where life is like holding a dagger and asking my permission to stab me or it may be myself asking myself after every issue that whats the point .Till now whatever was my problem were indirectly concerning  my parents with whom i lived now i am left with the mercy of my own self  .I have to take decision on my own and i have to make myself ready for the consequences too .Though i am starting to loss the patience part of it as i can no longer take myself standing on my own zebra crossing..............................

Do's and Don't

I have been good to this world for a long period of time and all along this time people made a habit of not even considering the feeling and the pain i am going through.It is about time that i tell them that i also get hurt, i also feel my wound i am of the same kind as you are.So i decided to write some do's and don't of mine which if not make things simple atleast makes clear in there head....................

DO's and DON't

1. I can't stand artificial people ,either be good or don't be good just be original
2. I do not like people interfering in my personal life until and unless they are told to do so
3. I can't hear anything against my loved ones or friends,atleast not infront of me
4. I can't stand disrespect to females so think twice before saying something or even doing something
5. I don't like people giving me orders
6. I can't stand people who judge others on there looks or facial appearances
7. I hate people who stand against there parents decisions and try to dishonor them
8. I don't like people who don't believe in god i feel seriously something is wrong with them
9. i feel not being interactive is a sign of weakness so i don't like that too
10.I may be wrong on this one but i don't like people praising my enemy in front of me that automatically  makes them my enemy


So now it's your decision if you want to make me your friend i would be the most loyal friend ever and if you want to make me your enemy i will be the most deadly one too.................

Priority

What do we think when we hear the word priority? Do we think of the pending work we have to do or do we think of an equipment we have to buy or we think of our family and our duties towards them or is it a person we like and we wish to make them a priority in our life.These are some thoughts with which we make our priority straight.It is obvious that the priority we keep depends on our nature and our liking ,say we have a glass bottle of cola and we wish to open the seal by removing it's cap,now here where priority kicks in.If i would have been there i would first search for the bottle opener before i even try opening the bottle whereas some would not even care to find the bottle opener and would do it just by using there bare teeth.Now i know this was a very silly example but it would make us more clear on the fact that how we prioritize things on the basis of natural habits.Now let us take our self to the work aspect of prioritization,say we are in office and i expect that each and everyone who works there has some or the other work to do ,now how do we prioritize work. Say if i am working in an office and i have a boss even worst two bosses and i have been alloted work from both of them differently have to submit both the works at same time.And also imagine that one boss is female good looking and you tend to get attracted to her and the other is an old man with no hair on head always angry on you type boss.Now being at my place what would your instinct say at that point of time.I wouldn't think even once before putting my priority straight.These are something we humans tend to do which makes us more degraded but what can we do it is human instinct.Till now we discussed about work and habits prior to that ,now let me take us to a more debatable aspect of prioritization,friends.Friendship may be a very nice word to hear but do we give each and every friend of our equal priority,think about it.A very good example to this would be sms.Now since we have a deadline of 100 messages a day do we spend all our messages equally.Or lets not go there say when we are in college do we spend time talking to all our friends equally or do we stick to one person most of the times .I am not saying that prioritization is bad among friends i am just enlightening the fact.

In all this we don't think of things which should be given priority over other likes of ours.Say breathing or oxygen is a must and should for any human life to sustain but we don't give priority to that as we take it for granted.And by this i mean to say that priority is a very relative term and there is nothing bad in keeping priority it's just that we shouldn't prioritize on the basis of limited knowledge and social ajar and try understanding the whole aspect of priority before we get deprioritized in the world.............

Man vs Machine

 Yesturday i went to a store not only just a store an Electronic store just because my cousin had to replace his mobile phone with a new and in his word a lot more trendy and eye catchy mobile phone.And there i wondered what is it that make us hungery for a such a thing which has no life which is created by us and whose work was to support our needs and in return it made us handicapped. We now find our self's in the well of electronic impairment.I could see us turning us into such a specie that right now is very difficult to imagine.What it may result in that no one knows but the distinctive pattern of what we see now is a very intrusive fact to look upon.

By using gadgets and devices we are letting our self take us back to the time from where we came, by this i mean we are letting humans go back from where we originated. The pattern which i saw in the recent times and would like to enlighten upon you guys is that our extensive use of gadgets and devices has caused major environment degradation which is a known fact and there are people who are concerned about it and trying to curtail it. But just by cleaning the water ,not killing the animals ,prohibiting of cutting trees etc won't make much difference if we let multinational car company keep coming up with those oil consuming gas emitting vehicles. And being proudly one of the co-operate sell out we indulge in buying it. Why doesn't at that point of time it comes to our mind that if we do so we put our future in jeopardy. What would we do if we are without the ozone i don't find much of our future left. Now let me take you even more further on the creation of mankind ,The nuclear bomb.Once some great person had said that if we fight a third world war then we have to fight the fourth on sticks and stones. Knowing this how can we say that we are working on building our future or are we working on destroying it. I remember when India first tested there nuclear bomb in the year 1998 all news channel glorified it as a day of advancement .I for one was in grief that we are also now a part of it .Nuclear energy was something we could build upon not to build weapons.

God has also started giving us indication of our adaptability towards the reverse of the way we are heading. If we noticed that the devices which we used earlier were big in size and we further wanted evolution of smaller in size ones say like mobile or computer etc for that matter.Now we are looking towards bigger in size and so called better devices like ipad or tablets etc hence i would say that we are heading back............