Flashback

Flashback,what does it tell you or i should say what comes in your mind when you come across such an experience. Is it usually a good one or does it turn out to be a bad thought or it may even be both. Flashbacks are never build castle in the air actually they are the proof of our durable memory that we possess. We develop our memory through time and we test them through our recollection. Sometimes it is not easy to recollect and reminiscence on it and sometimes it comes to us without even asking for it. It does not depend on how much reinforced our memory is or our memory cells are. It depends on how that particular instance has affected us and how much importance it had to us. There may be an experience that affected you years ago which is really hard to relieve or there would be an instance that happened to you in the morning which even if you try for it is difficult to recollect. This is how flashbacks work with appropriate time and instance it hits you where it would effect you the most.

Now i am sure you guys must be thinking why i am all about flashbacks today. It is because i was going through  my past in albums and i figured out that i remember a lot of it. Starting from my dad celebrating my first b'day to the pics dad clicked before i left for Bangalore. Honestly i don't remember celebrating my first b'day but i remember the people in it. I could easily recollect all my friends whom i used to play with when i was a kid by kid i meant when i was 4-5 years old ,my mom was young and my dad was handsome still they are but even more young and handsome. I went through all my b'day pics of each year and i was easily able to remember the major part of it. And as i came close to my present i was thinking why all this happened ,why didn't it come to halt why wasn't i able to stop the time. This was all i asked before i turned the last page down.

It may be true that flashbacks are not always great they may even be dreadful. It all depends on how yo make it. If you want your past to be dark and unreminded for then i am sure you will be successful in it. But if you want your past to be fruitful and asking you to bring it back then you have to work upon it. And this is my personal advise that a smile does make it better. Atleast the pic comes out nice.........Above is my pic when i was 1 years old......Wish you guys a very happy new year and may the flashbacks of this year remind you of how great this year was.............   

My Hotbed

Well first of all i would like to broach that how much i have missed you my dear zebra crossing.It was very hard to be separated from you for 22 days and i pledge for the coming 38 days i will try to make it up to you.

Now whats my hotbed,it is where i would like to spend most of my time and where i am usually separated from my stretching thoughts.It is where i created my carnality for you,zebra crossing.Where my innocence saw myself advance to a level of acuity,and yes you guessed it right it's my house.I am back with all the bandages covering my wound and here they seek medicate.When i arrived in Delhi on the morning of 24th December 2011 at around 4 o'clock the only warmth that i got was the thought of being at home.Just imagine the thought was so powerful then how would actuality be.Not only the hug which i got from my family members did the trick it was also the look of my room that got a hint of smile and a drop of tear in my eye.I had never thought that being so far would take me through such a commotion.

When i entered the house it was not only my mom and my dad who were waiting for me it was also my little fellow gang member who hadn't slept through out the night just waiting for me.I had never thought that i made such an importance in anyone's life.And the feeling just makes me animated.I was served with a hot cup of tea as i had entered the house and that tea was the best i had in a while.I could just see there faces how much tired they were but still to show there affection they kept themselfs awake till i actually told them to sleep.I myself was tired but the stress had just vanished looking at there faces.My mother was already busy preparing the schedule of what i would like to eat.It was all perfect.

Then in the night we decided to go out to see the charm of christmas on delhi and knowing the fact that it was delhi's 100 b'day we had to step out.I planned to drive them to DLF mall ,and thank god for me that this time i didn't pull my car on the pathway and they were genuinely impressed by my driving skills.After that was all about shopping which i am not much interested to tell.And as i had expected it was wonderful and alluring as ever.Now the start to this wonderful continuance has been brilliant i expect more to come.........Above is the view of my house.............

Traumatized

Well finally i am able to catch a break and give a little attention to my zebra crossing .I feel now that zebra crossing was a very appropriate name for a guys blog whose progress in life has been slow ,by slow i mean was that he is always got whatever he wanted but with a little inertness and enormous amount of patience shown by him. Being a person who has seen hurdle at ever junction of life and tackled it by just standing in front of problem till it only gives itself up i have started thinking that when will the time come when i will get whatever i wanted without begging to god and asking him for mercy till he actually pity me .Anyways i think this was all my frustration coming out dew to the brilliance shown in the innovation of exam papers by my university .I have learnt to adapt myself with all kind of situations whether it may be the stage where life is like holding a dagger and asking my permission to stab me or it may be myself asking myself after every issue that whats the point .Till now whatever was my problem were indirectly concerning  my parents with whom i lived now i am left with the mercy of my own self  .I have to take decision on my own and i have to make myself ready for the consequences too .Though i am starting to loss the patience part of it as i can no longer take myself standing on my own zebra crossing..............................