Pouring Positivity

First of all i would like to wish you guys a happy and prosperous eid and ganesh chaturthi.If my memory recalls i could clearly remember that few days ago i was totally pulverized with my consistently pouring debacle contenting me with all happiness and joy i couldn't have ever imagined.I was being molded with my own chisel,i was being sliced with my own saw ,may be for good or may be for bad that only the molder knows.What i know is that the process of molding is over god has ceased his revenge.Now i feel like a kid who went to a dentist and after all the ache and blood what he got in return was a luscious looking doll which made him feel that it wasn't that bad at all.I am getting the same feeling.I feel like the archimedes principle applies with bouyancy on me.I like the feeling of waking up in the morning excited about the day to come.I could feel the change by noticing the way i have started communicating with people whom i daily meet or even acquaintance for that matter.It may have been Eid or it may have been the realization part which hit me before i could have been sabotaged.There may be alot of reasons but the thing which i should be more concerned about is how not too lose this gift.Hence i feel the pouring positivity.......

Self Revolution

It seems that where ever i go these days or i should say whenever i step out of my house for some or the other duty i find the wind direction on the opposite side to where i intend to go.I have noticed in the last couple of days that adversities do hit you and they hit you very hard.It is not that i feel abashed that why misfortune knocked on my door so early leaving me with no preliminary time,instead i am happy that i have experienced a phase of my life so interesting that which i would never consign to oblivion.It has also put me in a thought whether or not i was on the right boulevard of my life.With all this i joyously conclude that this is the time when i intend to change when i let my myself above my fate.I keep myself prepared for more to come and let me put this clear the path may have changed but the target will always remain the same.Never let bad time make you divert from your goal even a bit instead face them with all you got and fight them with all you have or better is to make yourself prepared for such atrocities.

Melancholy

Shhhh! Guys i think i have touched the time of my life where nothing is going the way you have planned it to go. There are much more hurdles then pit stops and on top of every thing there is a growing feeling of not making up to the terminus of your objective .As i am managing to get closer and closer i could just see the sight of my goal getting more and more blur. And now god has also started collecting the depth of all the sins i have committed.So let me make it short nothing is going my way.Starting with my unaccountable performance in my exam with my phone getting mugged in public and now a new problem an uncalled injury.How do i explain to him that i have to do a lot of things in my life which i have queued in my basket and already the basket weights much more then a person could even think to carry.Once i was being told that we shouldn't run fast on a path which leads to nothing i still disagree with it though i have started thinking that running was not a good idea. I am sure each and everyone of you would be thinking what a loser he is instead of managing his problems he is making it public. but i felt a little different my blog is the only way i could express my emotions ,already everyone is facing there own percentage of problems hence i planned to distribute mine equally in all of you instead of restricting it to one guy and making it difficult for him or her.Though one think is gone good with me and with my blog is that i have completed a month of blogging and i have got more then 100 hits on my blog .Thank god atleast you guys are listening to me whether or not god is paying his attention. And not to forget pray for me that i manage to get through my endeavor atleast god will listen to you........

Mistakes

Well it has always been in a humans nature to change ,to learn from it's mistakes and trying to avoid doing it again. Our past clearly tells us that we have done a lot of mistakes in our life's and we have tried not to repeat it, but does that mean we change in our own perspective does that mean we try taking things not the way we used to take.Say for instance a man has done some mistake ,lets say it is a mistake done at his work.So would he change the way he used to think to avoid the same mistake would he stop wearing what he used to wear would he think twice to kiss his children before he leaves for his work or would he stop taking the bus he used to take to reach to his work .There are such cases who have given up all they used to do to avoid mistakes.Doing mistakes and then avoiding them is not bad at all but letting those mistake take control over you and letting them stop you for what you really like and for what you have been aspiring for is a terrible mistake in itself which then lets you to enter the incessant and malicious cycle of mistakes.After all doing mistakes is what makes you learn,So keep doing mistakes..................

My first fling

Hey guys i was planning this since long time finally i have decided that i will post a poem of mine which i had managed to write during an hour of my operating system class and as usual without sitting at the back bench i won't have managed to do so. It is called listen to me and it goes like this..............

Listen to me,make me flee

remove the shadow from my feet

listen to me,make them rain

make the barren land the same

listen to me,make them find

peace ,harmony and divine

listen to me,make them free

from cages ,barricades and other animosities

listen to me,let them face

there fear ,agony and faith

listen to me,remove the pain

from heart,souls and veins

listen to yourself,finally

make everyone happy ,gay and glee

-kamran badr

Back to Back Bench

It feels so good sitting again at the back ,mind being barricaded again with all the impassable thoughts and specially knowing of the facts that what it will result in .Getting into class with all hopes that this time i won't be the same i will listen to the class pay attention blah blah blah! all these hopes vanish by second period ,before i could plan the strategies of how to live up to my expectation i am already busy with my unending gregarious life .Sometimes i feel why god why did you give me such tormented mind that it never sticks to my plans ,and why did you give me such ecstatic heart that it never obeys to me .All these are questions i some time feel even god can't answer .The consequences of all this may be catastrophic but still what could i do i am slave of my own credo .Even while writing this blog i am being eclipsed by my mind and heart.....