Flashback

Flashback,what does it tell you or i should say what comes in your mind when you come across such an experience. Is it usually a good one or does it turn out to be a bad thought or it may even be both. Flashbacks are never build castle in the air actually they are the proof of our durable memory that we possess. We develop our memory through time and we test them through our recollection. Sometimes it is not easy to recollect and reminiscence on it and sometimes it comes to us without even asking for it. It does not depend on how much reinforced our memory is or our memory cells are. It depends on how that particular instance has affected us and how much importance it had to us. There may be an experience that affected you years ago which is really hard to relieve or there would be an instance that happened to you in the morning which even if you try for it is difficult to recollect. This is how flashbacks work with appropriate time and instance it hits you where it would effect you the most.

Now i am sure you guys must be thinking why i am all about flashbacks today. It is because i was going through  my past in albums and i figured out that i remember a lot of it. Starting from my dad celebrating my first b'day to the pics dad clicked before i left for Bangalore. Honestly i don't remember celebrating my first b'day but i remember the people in it. I could easily recollect all my friends whom i used to play with when i was a kid by kid i meant when i was 4-5 years old ,my mom was young and my dad was handsome still they are but even more young and handsome. I went through all my b'day pics of each year and i was easily able to remember the major part of it. And as i came close to my present i was thinking why all this happened ,why didn't it come to halt why wasn't i able to stop the time. This was all i asked before i turned the last page down.

It may be true that flashbacks are not always great they may even be dreadful. It all depends on how yo make it. If you want your past to be dark and unreminded for then i am sure you will be successful in it. But if you want your past to be fruitful and asking you to bring it back then you have to work upon it. And this is my personal advise that a smile does make it better. Atleast the pic comes out nice.........Above is my pic when i was 1 years old......Wish you guys a very happy new year and may the flashbacks of this year remind you of how great this year was.............   

My Hotbed

Well first of all i would like to broach that how much i have missed you my dear zebra crossing.It was very hard to be separated from you for 22 days and i pledge for the coming 38 days i will try to make it up to you.

Now whats my hotbed,it is where i would like to spend most of my time and where i am usually separated from my stretching thoughts.It is where i created my carnality for you,zebra crossing.Where my innocence saw myself advance to a level of acuity,and yes you guessed it right it's my house.I am back with all the bandages covering my wound and here they seek medicate.When i arrived in Delhi on the morning of 24th December 2011 at around 4 o'clock the only warmth that i got was the thought of being at home.Just imagine the thought was so powerful then how would actuality be.Not only the hug which i got from my family members did the trick it was also the look of my room that got a hint of smile and a drop of tear in my eye.I had never thought that being so far would take me through such a commotion.

When i entered the house it was not only my mom and my dad who were waiting for me it was also my little fellow gang member who hadn't slept through out the night just waiting for me.I had never thought that i made such an importance in anyone's life.And the feeling just makes me animated.I was served with a hot cup of tea as i had entered the house and that tea was the best i had in a while.I could just see there faces how much tired they were but still to show there affection they kept themselfs awake till i actually told them to sleep.I myself was tired but the stress had just vanished looking at there faces.My mother was already busy preparing the schedule of what i would like to eat.It was all perfect.

Then in the night we decided to go out to see the charm of christmas on delhi and knowing the fact that it was delhi's 100 b'day we had to step out.I planned to drive them to DLF mall ,and thank god for me that this time i didn't pull my car on the pathway and they were genuinely impressed by my driving skills.After that was all about shopping which i am not much interested to tell.And as i had expected it was wonderful and alluring as ever.Now the start to this wonderful continuance has been brilliant i expect more to come.........Above is the view of my house.............

Traumatized

Well finally i am able to catch a break and give a little attention to my zebra crossing .I feel now that zebra crossing was a very appropriate name for a guys blog whose progress in life has been slow ,by slow i mean was that he is always got whatever he wanted but with a little inertness and enormous amount of patience shown by him. Being a person who has seen hurdle at ever junction of life and tackled it by just standing in front of problem till it only gives itself up i have started thinking that when will the time come when i will get whatever i wanted without begging to god and asking him for mercy till he actually pity me .Anyways i think this was all my frustration coming out dew to the brilliance shown in the innovation of exam papers by my university .I have learnt to adapt myself with all kind of situations whether it may be the stage where life is like holding a dagger and asking my permission to stab me or it may be myself asking myself after every issue that whats the point .Till now whatever was my problem were indirectly concerning  my parents with whom i lived now i am left with the mercy of my own self  .I have to take decision on my own and i have to make myself ready for the consequences too .Though i am starting to loss the patience part of it as i can no longer take myself standing on my own zebra crossing..............................

Do's and Don't

I have been good to this world for a long period of time and all along this time people made a habit of not even considering the feeling and the pain i am going through.It is about time that i tell them that i also get hurt, i also feel my wound i am of the same kind as you are.So i decided to write some do's and don't of mine which if not make things simple atleast makes clear in there head....................

DO's and DON't

1. I can't stand artificial people ,either be good or don't be good just be original
2. I do not like people interfering in my personal life until and unless they are told to do so
3. I can't hear anything against my loved ones or friends,atleast not infront of me
4. I can't stand disrespect to females so think twice before saying something or even doing something
5. I don't like people giving me orders
6. I can't stand people who judge others on there looks or facial appearances
7. I hate people who stand against there parents decisions and try to dishonor them
8. I don't like people who don't believe in god i feel seriously something is wrong with them
9. i feel not being interactive is a sign of weakness so i don't like that too
10.I may be wrong on this one but i don't like people praising my enemy in front of me that automatically  makes them my enemy


So now it's your decision if you want to make me your friend i would be the most loyal friend ever and if you want to make me your enemy i will be the most deadly one too.................

Priority

What do we think when we hear the word priority? Do we think of the pending work we have to do or do we think of an equipment we have to buy or we think of our family and our duties towards them or is it a person we like and we wish to make them a priority in our life.These are some thoughts with which we make our priority straight.It is obvious that the priority we keep depends on our nature and our liking ,say we have a glass bottle of cola and we wish to open the seal by removing it's cap,now here where priority kicks in.If i would have been there i would first search for the bottle opener before i even try opening the bottle whereas some would not even care to find the bottle opener and would do it just by using there bare teeth.Now i know this was a very silly example but it would make us more clear on the fact that how we prioritize things on the basis of natural habits.Now let us take our self to the work aspect of prioritization,say we are in office and i expect that each and everyone who works there has some or the other work to do ,now how do we prioritize work. Say if i am working in an office and i have a boss even worst two bosses and i have been alloted work from both of them differently have to submit both the works at same time.And also imagine that one boss is female good looking and you tend to get attracted to her and the other is an old man with no hair on head always angry on you type boss.Now being at my place what would your instinct say at that point of time.I wouldn't think even once before putting my priority straight.These are something we humans tend to do which makes us more degraded but what can we do it is human instinct.Till now we discussed about work and habits prior to that ,now let me take us to a more debatable aspect of prioritization,friends.Friendship may be a very nice word to hear but do we give each and every friend of our equal priority,think about it.A very good example to this would be sms.Now since we have a deadline of 100 messages a day do we spend all our messages equally.Or lets not go there say when we are in college do we spend time talking to all our friends equally or do we stick to one person most of the times .I am not saying that prioritization is bad among friends i am just enlightening the fact.

In all this we don't think of things which should be given priority over other likes of ours.Say breathing or oxygen is a must and should for any human life to sustain but we don't give priority to that as we take it for granted.And by this i mean to say that priority is a very relative term and there is nothing bad in keeping priority it's just that we shouldn't prioritize on the basis of limited knowledge and social ajar and try understanding the whole aspect of priority before we get deprioritized in the world.............

Man vs Machine

 Yesturday i went to a store not only just a store an Electronic store just because my cousin had to replace his mobile phone with a new and in his word a lot more trendy and eye catchy mobile phone.And there i wondered what is it that make us hungery for a such a thing which has no life which is created by us and whose work was to support our needs and in return it made us handicapped. We now find our self's in the well of electronic impairment.I could see us turning us into such a specie that right now is very difficult to imagine.What it may result in that no one knows but the distinctive pattern of what we see now is a very intrusive fact to look upon.

By using gadgets and devices we are letting our self take us back to the time from where we came, by this i mean we are letting humans go back from where we originated. The pattern which i saw in the recent times and would like to enlighten upon you guys is that our extensive use of gadgets and devices has caused major environment degradation which is a known fact and there are people who are concerned about it and trying to curtail it. But just by cleaning the water ,not killing the animals ,prohibiting of cutting trees etc won't make much difference if we let multinational car company keep coming up with those oil consuming gas emitting vehicles. And being proudly one of the co-operate sell out we indulge in buying it. Why doesn't at that point of time it comes to our mind that if we do so we put our future in jeopardy. What would we do if we are without the ozone i don't find much of our future left. Now let me take you even more further on the creation of mankind ,The nuclear bomb.Once some great person had said that if we fight a third world war then we have to fight the fourth on sticks and stones. Knowing this how can we say that we are working on building our future or are we working on destroying it. I remember when India first tested there nuclear bomb in the year 1998 all news channel glorified it as a day of advancement .I for one was in grief that we are also now a part of it .Nuclear energy was something we could build upon not to build weapons.

God has also started giving us indication of our adaptability towards the reverse of the way we are heading. If we noticed that the devices which we used earlier were big in size and we further wanted evolution of smaller in size ones say like mobile or computer etc for that matter.Now we are looking towards bigger in size and so called better devices like ipad or tablets etc hence i would say that we are heading back............ 

Gym etc

Once Homer Simpson went to a street he saw and said 
                                         GYME? What's a GYME? (Sees Gym) Oohh, a gyme!
This is exactly what i felt going inside a gym first time it looked like another planet not even in milky way where you look around and you find only aliens with weird structure and weird dialect.One of them came to me as he was the supreme commander of his own race asked me whether he could help me out.I for one thought of myself as a representative to my fellow humans but then suddenly i gathered that i was talking to one and also a gym instructor of the gym too,though i have to admit that i was eclipsed by his huge muscles that made me think else wise.i have not seen someone so huge and bulky in my whole life.
After that we had the following conversation


Gi-gym instructor


Gi: how can i help you?(with a loud and strong voice)


me: (staring at him)


Gi: Sir?(a little more firm)


me: don't hit me


Gi: Why would i(gently)


me: okay!!!!then tell me how do i become like you?(genuinely)


Gi: You mean to say you want to join the gym...


me: yes!!!!


Gi: fill this form and pay ************ amount and you are in


me: okay!!!(still scared inside)


(paper work done)


Gi: congrats sir you are know a member of ************* gym


me: Thanks (and left gym)


me:(again went back)So does that mean you won't hit me!!!!


this is how my encounter with aliens happens now i have to meet them daily for an hour i hope this experience will be exciting and fruitful as well........

Humour

Humor also known as comedy, amusement, buffoonery, wittiness, comicality, flippancy are nothing but act of drollery.We of fen see our self getting indulged in it without knowing the fact that why it originated and what reason it still exist.Humor in technical terms is defined as a tendency of particular cognitive experiences to provoke laughter and provide amusement.This term was derived from ancient Greek where humor meant was Body fluids which controls the human health and emotions.Whatever our lifespan till now would have been we have been able to experience humor on majority of occasion.Now say for instance when we were kids we were only inclined towards cartoons and other humor related to it or lets go even backwards when we were new born our parents and the people around us always tried to make us laugh by making ugly faces or any other act of mindlessness just to make it simpler for them.So since the beginning of our life we have witnessed humor and it gives us a great evidence of how important is humor as an entity to us.

Many prefer humor as a source of getting away from what they have done and what has made them anxious ,many use humor to find a relief from what they fear and many keep humor as an example of there defensive mechanism.Of fen humor is made resulting into agonizing and depriving a person from the other who may have enjoyed it.Therefore humor may turn into something which you don't imagine.We have to keep humor to a restricted and apprehensive aspect before it could damage a lot.I of fen indulge myself into humor thinking of that may be i could give others something to cheer about in the world of agony and sorrow.I feel that everyone is blessed with good sense of humor but it's just that many don't imply humor in there life or they never find humor as a source of productiveness and there are people who of fen hesitate to crack a joke as they fear takes a better of them.

I feel that making people smile is one of the duties that god has bestowed upon us and only humor could cover the sorrow beneath you for not to be remarked upon............  

Mars Vs Venus

It has always remained a known fact that men's are from Mars and women's are from Venus and they always proved to live up to this hypothesis.I thought of writing about such a controversial topic as right now i am sitting in front of a TV set with my mom and dad fighting over a remote.My dad being a man wants to watch a show which will make him gain something in life like BBC(which at sometimes is very boring) and my mom being a women wants to watch something which will make her more befuddled and confused in her life like some serial coming on Sony(Don't know what it is called it comes around 10 and has created nonsense in my house since years).Before i go any further i would like to take an oath that what ever i will say from now will be unbiased and will be quoted with full knowledge and experience.

Some how or the other the frequency of a men and a women have never aligned itself at the intellectual level or at the emotional even if they are perfect couples and meant for each other sorts.There has always been something which have made them fight for.Men's have a very distinctive taste within there own restriction what i meant to say is that all men's have different taste and liking but there liking are restricted to a particular set of things and they could never ever think of liking something beyond it.Now say for instance a man likes a car he will go for colors like blue, black, grey etc but he would never think of something like pink because that doesn't come under his set of options.A women on the other hand have a very limited amount of options they like something which is very common among it's fellow's.Hence they have a very good quality of making girl's as a friend unlike men's as a friend who are always very selective about it.Though i have to say that there are exceptions in both but i am talking about masses.The word self respect has different meaning in both men as well as it's counter part and both take it very seriously and of course there are exceptions too.Men like self respect to be kept as honesty ,bravery ,man-hood ,ego etc on the other hand women term's it as honor, pride, trust ,faith etc.People in the world may think that women are more emotional but i will go ahead and contradict that men are the most emotional creature on this world it may be that females have more water to flow from there eyes then men but men have always been more sympathetic and weak in heart then women.I for one have always said and will say that we men should always be scared of them and treat them no less as they can do thinks better then us.

This can't also be denied that men have always loved there PARTICULAR counter part and they have also got the same from them too.And it is also true that for few men the word particular doesn't have any meaning because of which it makes the name of men go down.It has always been god's blessing and magic that two of us have lived on this world with as much as love and compasion needed and i hope it carries on............        

A City to A Home

My father came to this city finding a better standard of living imagining himself grow like any other person in the world ,he may have succeeded but there were many more who didn't who had no option then to head back from where they came and start a life of compromise and restriction.There are people who come in search of a better education to get a better understanding of what the world is all about, there are also those who haven't heard the word of education and find them self working at a very small level earning them self as much as to make them satisfy there needs for staying alive in a city like Delhi.And then there are people who didn't have to do much to survive in city and they were already very happy on what there ancestors had done to themselves.And i found myself bouncing in that category .when i was in Delhi i never knew how difficult it was for my father to make himself a valued part of this city and how i always relished the fact that i never did anything to make myself what i was ,it was always my father with whose hard work and name i went and completed my education in one of the best schools in Delhi with whose earning i was able to get what ever i wanted. He did his part and he did it with full dedication and honesty.Now it is my turn ,I find myself in a city where i have to build a name within many.I have to make my father proud so that he can say that his son followed his footsteps and he became what he wanted to become.Unlike my father the city in which i find myself is Bangalore.It may be a very competitive city but i am sure it won't make me disappointed as i believe in it and the city believes in me.And a very strong fact which i feel is that a city gets its name by people not by it's lucrativeness.And i am in love with people of my city and also not forgetting the fact that i have to work hard to make dreams accomplished by always endering to my principles and my learning which my parents have given to me.Else i  have to comprise and go back and live a life of restriction which i never and ever wished for.......

Ta-ta bengaluru

Yippeeeeeeeeeee finally i have got over with my class and packing my bags now and as i was doing so i was also erupting with feeling's emotional as well as usual.As the yippe with some extra e's must have suggested that i am totally excited about my cut short visit to Delhi ,also suddenly after coming from college after finishing all my work i got a little inquisitive about how am i going through such an emotion.Emotion that i am not able to understand ,emotions that are really making me baffle on the point that am i happy.Today as i wished everyone with prosperous Diwali and bid them adieu,i at that time got that during my tenure till now i have gained a lot in this city then i have lost.I have gained friends whom i will always miss.This also brought me to a dot that what would happen when i have to leave them forever.The thought is only so dark then how would the reality be.This time its different ,I am not only praying for my safe journey to delhi but i am also praying for my journey back home..............HAPPY DIWALI WILL MISS YOU GUYS............ 

Chemical X

"Sugar. Spice. And everything nice. These were the ingredients chosen to create the perfect little girls. But Professor Utonium accidentally added an extra ingredient to the concoction... Chemical X. Thus the Powerpuff Girls were born. Using their ultra-superpowers, Blossom, Bubbles, and Buttercup have dedicated their lives to fighting crime and the forces of evil ".These were the few lines which always attracted my attention whenever i used to get in the radar range of my television set.I always wanted to know what exactly was chemical x.May be that could have been the reason to my eagerness of waiting for 7th standard,where i could have been able to indulge in the subject like chemistry which could have given me a chance of knowing the secrets of professor utonium's accidental but powerful concoction.But fortunately or unfortunately i never came to know about it instead i met with number of chemicals in whom i used to find my chemical x.The only knowledge which i gathered about it was that it was a very powerful chemical that used to give people superpowers and special ability.The creation of powerpuff girl's was an accident which was caused due to there rival and there enemy MOJO JOJO who used to be called JOJO at that time when he was just a monkey in professor's laboratory.Actually creation of MOJO JOJO also happened dew to mixture of chemical x in his tissue which turned him into a monkey with extra brain and when i say extra brain i literally mean extra brains.Chemical x was in unlimited supply at professor's lab .The chemical was also responsible for giving all the girls a distinctive appearance.Chemical's appearance was like a viscous black oil so whenever anyone of you comes across it please let my curiosity come to an end.Till then i will leave you guys with my favorite quotes from powerpuff girl's 

Mojo Jojo: Hello, may I speak to Professor Utonium?
Bubbles: Who shall I say is calling?
Mojo Jojo: Oh, no one he'd know, just a curious stranger.
Bubbles: PROFESSOR! THERE'S A STRANGER ON THE PHONE! 
Professor Utonium: Hello, Mr. Stranger. What can I do for you?    

Change

I am sure you guys must have noticed that i have changed the layout of my blog.This was done in purpose with a lot of thinking ,i always felt that my blog wasn't satisfying as if it never appealed to me and encouraged my intentions and I also felt that i was a very different person when the initiation of this blog happened.I was more gridlocked with all negative thoughts because of which i am sure i must have kept the color of my blog as black. Which also made me forget that there were always equal number of white lines as there were blacks.My blog made me realize it and i am really thankful for that.and i hope i never get eclipsed with all contradictory thoughts anymore............. 

Eve of Internals

I could smell the cold beautiful lush coming of winter which is bring a smile upon my face wait a sec let me bring back the reality to you guys no such feeling is cropping in my mind right now i am filled with different sets of emotions. Emotions that are giving me goosebumps actually giving my goosebumps a goosebumps which you could imagine is really freaky for me.I have no clue what is going to happen ,instead of counting sheep before sleeping i am counting the number of books which i have to complete I have started waking up in the middle of the night and start abusing the authors of my course books.I have a really big task ahead this week in which i have to prove a point to the world.I hope i succeed in my motive.This would be my last post before internals so wish me luck.........

Movies of all time

These are few movies which i will always adore...........

ENGLISH

TIER1

1.The godfather

2.Gandhi

3.Schindler's list

4.Fight club

5.Pulp fiction

6.Forrest Gump

7.The Shawshank redemption

8.American History X

9.Taxi Driver

10.The Departed

TIER 2

1.The godfather 3

2.Shutter island

3.Kings speech

4.Reservoir Dogs

5.Inglourious Basterds

6.The godfather 2

7.300

8.Saving private Ryan

9.Once upon a time in Mexico

10.Pursuit of Happiness

TIER 3

1.Kungfu panda

2.Titanic

3.Independence Day

4.Finding Nemo

5.Dark Knight

6.Troy

7.Gladiator

8.Harold and Kumar go to White castle

9.The social network

10.The Big lebowski

HINDI

TIER 1

1.Udaan

2.Sholay

3.7 Khoon Maaf

4.3 Idiots

5.Mughal-e-azam

6.Naya Daur

7.Lagaan

8.Rang de basanti

9.Chak de india

10.Taare Zameen par

TIER 2

1.Delhi Belly

2.Bombay to Goa

3.DDLJ

4.Ghajini

5.Mother India

6.Pakeezah

7.Lage raho munna bhai

8.Munna bhai MBBS

9.Ram aur shyam

10.Mukkadar ka sikandar

Fellow gang member

This blog completely is dedicated to my wing man who is annoying majority of the times trying to act smart and superior to any ones knowledge i am sure if galileo or einstein would have been alive he would have contradicted there theory too with his well made up sounds perfect and unrealistic theory in which he got Phd.This is not just the pain of one single person which is coming out today due of his unending pseudo intellectualism but i am talking for all those who have to face him on a daily basis.Yes sadly i am talking about my brother Dr Arman Hasan who ages around 11 years and have an IQ more then mine or in this case more then anyone who is reading this blog.My father got his Phd at the age of 28 he got it when he started talking.He has a great talent of making others look like a fool when an argument is happening.This is a serious warning to all those who have yet not met Arman,even if you are arguing on a topic with a masters on it he will squeeze you like you never exists on top of knowing the fact that he doesn't know shit about it.He always makes me look guilty even if i am far away from the crime scene.I will share an incident with you guys.One day my mom called me and she started shouting at me for no reason ,when i picked up the call i was half a sleep too so don't remember what she said later i came to know that something arman did in school whose blame he diverted on me so not knowing the fact that whatever happened with him in the school and staying approx 2400 km away yet i had to face the fury of my parents. THIS IS ARMAN.Though few things of him i really like is that he reads more then i do and he has a very artistic approach to everything.And i also know that how much he loves me ,he waits for me whenever i am coming back he is the first too hug me.I also love him alot actually can't live without his arguments.I know he will make a great name for himself in future and i will try my level best to make him do so.........

Don't have a topic for this

This is dedicated to all the innocent who die in the terrorist attacks and how there families who are keeping aspirations with them have to put a full stop to what they call it a dream now.It is extremely sad to see them die specially the young ones.I hope my message will reach to you guys..............

Why be bothered with murders and mysteries

when you don't care how is it going to hurt your history

Why be bothered with the world burning down

when you are not the one to be frowned

let them face what they deserve

after all they are ones who made it worse

But then comes in my blue sky

just looking at the innocent die

how would their family feel

when they would see their loved one sealed

Stop it at once before nothing is left

or else you will be the one to face all the belt

not in this world then the world to come

with wounded people and there plee numb

I know you are deaf and dumb

But don't you have kids and sons

Who have dreams like the other ones

Stop it stop it stop it.........

Evanish

Was not planning to write a blog though suddenly a strange felling let me into doing so.The feeling was abnormal and unparalleled,i felt like it does not have any motive.It was neither addressed by the devil nor the priest.Though i have to say it was unique and feeling was of being alone abandoned deserted unaided and forlorn.I felt like having no one around is far better then having them.They remind you of your mistakes your errors which you made and in return of your mistakes you got was just unhappiness and grave.It felt like clamping yourself beneath the depth of silence abandoning yourself from this oppressive neighborhood.I know it is not possible to avoid nature and its creation and knowing that has made me even more ingrave.The battle with my feeling is commensurate and i hope that the convinced and decisive prevail.........

Hampi Gala

This was one thing which i was looking forward for a long period of time "A trip" with my friends with no unwanted interventions.Before i left for Hampi i was clear in my mind that i will try to forget about whatever i go through in a regular day of mine i will enjoy those 2 days like i was born again with no tension of money, studies and those sort of things.It all started with that one auspicious day when my friend Manju came up with an idea of going to Hampi considering the fact that he is my roommate as well as classmate and he never comes up with ideas i decided to back him up.At the start there were a lot of things that were cropping my mind one of things was the place.Now being a person curious to know about the past i always supported the idea of visiting such a place.Now it would have been very stupid of me if i would have gone there without studying about the place i went through net and surfed as much as possible and my preview wasn't much happening though when i told my friends about it they backed my decision with all support and happiness.It was then very clear that it would turn into one trip.Now every car requires four wheels to move in this car the four wheels were me, laamboo, macha and pj now this is up to you guys to figure out whom i am referring too.Now i realized after this trip there are three phases in such a trip those three phases would be one while journey in train or bus other while doing real site seeing gaining some knowledge and last while having the most stupidest fun anyone could imagine.The first phase was very interesting and scary too when our friend Pj suddenly disappeared in the middle of the night in the train god knows at what time and after searching whole night we found him at 6 30 in the morning at bellary station where he was coming with a cup tea in his hand i am sure the tea won't have tasted good after listening too our criticism.The second phase was very inculcating and enlightening that i am not interested in enlightening you guys with.I was waiting for this the third phase we had some real crazy boy fun which usually it is expected from any other bunch of boys but the most fascinating one among them was the ghost of savitri which was looking for its long lasting love pavan which even came to knock our doors in the night searching for pavan and pavan was such a betrayer that he was hiding in the toilet.In all this my favorite part was the luscious looking Tungabhadra river with its full force taking curve at hampi and those historic mantapa's sinking beneath it.with birds flying above it like they are following the path enriched by god.It was one trip that even if i want to forget i can't.I wish you guys have as much of fun as i had or even more atleast once in life......

Mean and cool

The story starts long time ago when i was 7 or 8 years old my eyes had started capturing the glimpse of what ever i use to see I have no clue which part of my brain it used to get stored may be i should ask my database teacher if she has any idea though on relishing it i clearly could remember my trip to Lucknow when my father told me that we had to attend a ceremony at one of my aunts house.I also remember the morning train which we took to attend the ceremony on time ,on the way my mom was trying to teach me the names of my cousins whom i had to meet and in ceremony of whom we were going.And then that name emerged which became one of the most eloquent name in my life.I saw him for the first time playing the game of monopoly with my remaining cousin's.I knew that he was contradistinctive from the other bunch of nerds.He had his own style of subsistence which made me inspired.Henceforth that day i always tried to be one of the annoying unwanted tails of his ,eager to learn about what makes him so cool in his own way.Just to aquire the perpectual coolness of his i used to ask my mom to keep lucknow as a elongated pitstop in our journey in summers.And as the time passed by one day it came to my knowledge that he got through NIFT,Delhi And he was going to stay in delhi for next 4 years.My joy was unending.I learn't from him what i couldn't have learn't from my preceptor's.He had become a very busy man in his world i didn't have courage to make him disturb from his gregarious life.But it may have been god's will that he wanted his guidance enlighted upon me he got a Job in bangalore the same month when i shifted.My respect for him reached at the atmost height anyone couldn't imagine.I continued to be an unwanted tail of his but this time on a really expensive note where he had to pay for his own class.But he never said anything it was then that he got the title of mean attached to him as that was the time i learned that no one can be nice to this cruel world.My dept on him is so huge that may be i won't be able to pay in my entire life.One think that i can promise him is my unending loyalty and my faith on him........

Pouring Positivity

First of all i would like to wish you guys a happy and prosperous eid and ganesh chaturthi.If my memory recalls i could clearly remember that few days ago i was totally pulverized with my consistently pouring debacle contenting me with all happiness and joy i couldn't have ever imagined.I was being molded with my own chisel,i was being sliced with my own saw ,may be for good or may be for bad that only the molder knows.What i know is that the process of molding is over god has ceased his revenge.Now i feel like a kid who went to a dentist and after all the ache and blood what he got in return was a luscious looking doll which made him feel that it wasn't that bad at all.I am getting the same feeling.I feel like the archimedes principle applies with bouyancy on me.I like the feeling of waking up in the morning excited about the day to come.I could feel the change by noticing the way i have started communicating with people whom i daily meet or even acquaintance for that matter.It may have been Eid or it may have been the realization part which hit me before i could have been sabotaged.There may be alot of reasons but the thing which i should be more concerned about is how not too lose this gift.Hence i feel the pouring positivity.......

Self Revolution

It seems that where ever i go these days or i should say whenever i step out of my house for some or the other duty i find the wind direction on the opposite side to where i intend to go.I have noticed in the last couple of days that adversities do hit you and they hit you very hard.It is not that i feel abashed that why misfortune knocked on my door so early leaving me with no preliminary time,instead i am happy that i have experienced a phase of my life so interesting that which i would never consign to oblivion.It has also put me in a thought whether or not i was on the right boulevard of my life.With all this i joyously conclude that this is the time when i intend to change when i let my myself above my fate.I keep myself prepared for more to come and let me put this clear the path may have changed but the target will always remain the same.Never let bad time make you divert from your goal even a bit instead face them with all you got and fight them with all you have or better is to make yourself prepared for such atrocities.

Melancholy

Shhhh! Guys i think i have touched the time of my life where nothing is going the way you have planned it to go. There are much more hurdles then pit stops and on top of every thing there is a growing feeling of not making up to the terminus of your objective .As i am managing to get closer and closer i could just see the sight of my goal getting more and more blur. And now god has also started collecting the depth of all the sins i have committed.So let me make it short nothing is going my way.Starting with my unaccountable performance in my exam with my phone getting mugged in public and now a new problem an uncalled injury.How do i explain to him that i have to do a lot of things in my life which i have queued in my basket and already the basket weights much more then a person could even think to carry.Once i was being told that we shouldn't run fast on a path which leads to nothing i still disagree with it though i have started thinking that running was not a good idea. I am sure each and everyone of you would be thinking what a loser he is instead of managing his problems he is making it public. but i felt a little different my blog is the only way i could express my emotions ,already everyone is facing there own percentage of problems hence i planned to distribute mine equally in all of you instead of restricting it to one guy and making it difficult for him or her.Though one think is gone good with me and with my blog is that i have completed a month of blogging and i have got more then 100 hits on my blog .Thank god atleast you guys are listening to me whether or not god is paying his attention. And not to forget pray for me that i manage to get through my endeavor atleast god will listen to you........

Mistakes

Well it has always been in a humans nature to change ,to learn from it's mistakes and trying to avoid doing it again. Our past clearly tells us that we have done a lot of mistakes in our life's and we have tried not to repeat it, but does that mean we change in our own perspective does that mean we try taking things not the way we used to take.Say for instance a man has done some mistake ,lets say it is a mistake done at his work.So would he change the way he used to think to avoid the same mistake would he stop wearing what he used to wear would he think twice to kiss his children before he leaves for his work or would he stop taking the bus he used to take to reach to his work .There are such cases who have given up all they used to do to avoid mistakes.Doing mistakes and then avoiding them is not bad at all but letting those mistake take control over you and letting them stop you for what you really like and for what you have been aspiring for is a terrible mistake in itself which then lets you to enter the incessant and malicious cycle of mistakes.After all doing mistakes is what makes you learn,So keep doing mistakes..................

My first fling

Hey guys i was planning this since long time finally i have decided that i will post a poem of mine which i had managed to write during an hour of my operating system class and as usual without sitting at the back bench i won't have managed to do so. It is called listen to me and it goes like this..............

Listen to me,make me flee

remove the shadow from my feet

listen to me,make them rain

make the barren land the same

listen to me,make them find

peace ,harmony and divine

listen to me,make them free

from cages ,barricades and other animosities

listen to me,let them face

there fear ,agony and faith

listen to me,remove the pain

from heart,souls and veins

listen to yourself,finally

make everyone happy ,gay and glee

-kamran badr

Back to Back Bench

It feels so good sitting again at the back ,mind being barricaded again with all the impassable thoughts and specially knowing of the facts that what it will result in .Getting into class with all hopes that this time i won't be the same i will listen to the class pay attention blah blah blah! all these hopes vanish by second period ,before i could plan the strategies of how to live up to my expectation i am already busy with my unending gregarious life .Sometimes i feel why god why did you give me such tormented mind that it never sticks to my plans ,and why did you give me such ecstatic heart that it never obeys to me .All these are questions i some time feel even god can't answer .The consequences of all this may be catastrophic but still what could i do i am slave of my own credo .Even while writing this blog i am being eclipsed by my mind and heart.....

Last night in Delhi

Right now i am filled with a collection of clashing emotions . I don't know which of them is empowering which one , i even don't know what i want right now i am lost in my own world .On one hand i feel bad that i am about to leave my city my people again ,and again i have to anticipate on when i will get time to pay them a visit and on the other hand i feel good that i am about to go back to my friends and feeling of getting busy with my assiduous life is bringing a hint of smile on my face .But i am not sure which is more ponderous in my mind..........I am leaving tomorrow for Bangalore and already i feel the change in me .The ideas which helped me get away from my boredom have just stopped flowing as if they are telling me that your stay in Delhi is over ,my mind is again diverted to Bangalore.......My suitcase is ready it's just that i have to pack a few things ,the things which mattered to me the most and those would be my time spend with my parents my brother and my friends and i will cherish them throughout my stay in Bangalore............

A Quaint feeling

Here we are humans as sons of Adam and Eve in this world ,thinking about our past present and future getting often befuddled on many situation's in our life .With our objects with our goal we are like horse with a finishing line .Lets give it a break we are humans aren't we ,we are the ideal race to get confused with our own self .We on the other hand have managed to get to great heights because of our confusion and we remain confused ,i am sure this confusion will take us too our at most positions .Confusion in our life's has been like a rat in the house we have always tried to keep it out but it has always managed to sneak through in all the matters .Say for instance it may have been the confusion of Christopher Columbus which made him search the land of america whether or not he was searching for the path of Asia or it may been Adolf Hitler who made an attack on Russia which later costed him in a defeat .If bill gates won't have been confused on leaving his studies then we won't have had Microsoft with us ,and most important if Gandhi ji won't have got confused on looking at India after he came back we won't have got independence .Right or wrong confusion have got us to were we are and i thank my confusion that where ever i am is because of you and i am sure you guys must be as confused as i am right now......

My city my town

As soon i use the words my city my town people would say ahhh! here we go again with his stupid allegiance towards Delhi .Well which is not true Delhi is not my city Delhi is not the city from where my roots came Delhi is not the city where i got into existence .My city my den is Varanasi popularly known as Banaras .

Varanasi is a tourist destination as well as a godly place it is one of the oldest inhabited city in the world .The holy river Ganges flows though it and there by leaving a large impression on the tourist as well as on inhabitants .Ganga is also considered very sacred in Hindu's .Banaras has also been home for some prominent philosopher's and musician like Munsi Premchand ,Kabir ,Jaishankar Prasad ,Acharya Shukla ,Girja Devi , Ravi Shankar ,Hari Prasad Chaurasia and Ustad Bismillah Khan .Gautam Budha gave his first sermon at Sarnath which is located in Varanasi .The city also has the most prominent and one of the oldest university in india 'Banaras Hindu University' i have had a very close association with this university as my grandfather was a professor in it .The city got it's name Varanasi from the two rivers Varuna and Assi ,and it is situated between both the rivers with Ganges in it's south.

More then the above facts the thing which matters to me is that this city gave me existence .I was born on the 11th day of march 1990 ,I was being told that day was Holi as many of you would be knowing that the most grossome Holi in india is played in Varanasi So you could guess how much trouble i had given to my parents and my relatives .I still remember my mama telling me that how he ran on the railway tracks leaving the food behind which he was getting for my mom just because a mob started chasing him and why wouldn't they chase he was wearing a white kurta .My grandfather owns a house in Varanasi just beside river Ganga and Trust me guys the view is by far the most beautiful and the most peaceful view i have ever seen in my life .

Whatever the city may be dirty ,polluted ,uncivilized but still whenever i get down on the station it gives me the warmth that home would give to any other person.....

Rail gadi

"Kabhi Kabhi mere dil mein khayal aata hai ke jaise tujhko banaya gaya hai mere liye" that's about the first thing which comes into my mind when i think of railways specifically indian railways.....my obsession towards railway was since birth ,i was one of those kid who would always keep the names of trains in mind rather then concentrating on his studies .My father would come to me to ask about railway time table rather then referring to one......But with all this obsession there was fear to ,now you guys must be thinking what is so fearsome about Indian railways ,it is the overcrowded trains which i used to fear ,because of which my father used to get into a fight it maybe due to reservation or it could be because of an acceptable behavior of fellow traveler's.......

I still remember a journey which me and my family had to do .We were travelling in this train which had to take us from delhi to varanasi(My birthplace) .I may have hardly been 7 though i clearly remember it .The train had stopped on a station called amethi and we were traveling in first class a very rude man had stepped into the compartment he was very hostile my father gave him warning he didn't listen .And continued with his behavior my father had no option then to drag him on the tracks beat him till he realized his mistakes .Now on the other side i was crying like my father was beating me ,i was more amusing for the people around then my father's enduring performance.....

As i grew up saw myself drenching into my obsession .I used to plan my journey way before my parents used to think about going .The train glance was never a glance for me it was my text book I won't disagree that it was a concern for my parents too .I had made a habit into obsession ,though i have to say that it did help me and my family but may not have helped much.....

And i could still proudly say that my love towards trains is same but the fear has gone .Even if you ask me today that what would you choose for a visit between a tourist destination or railway station i would prefer the later one.....

From all this i have learned something and the thing which i have learned is that it is not bad to make a habit into obsession but it should be in limited form or it may hamper your journey to the final destination....

Progenitor

I will tell you something about myself i am the most obedient child my parents could have got actually you could say that i am in my parents beck and call , which i don't think is bad at all and i am proud to say that , well how bad your parents could think about you the worst they can do is say yes when asked for a bike and then something comes into there mind and compels them to say no , well lets not freshen up the healing wound......What i wanted you guys to know is that i never forced my needs on them i don't disagree that i manipulated and kept my needs which looked like more preponderance to them......i have always kept peace with my parents and in return i have got what i wanted and also what i never wanted......

Now i am sure many of you would be thinking that why suddenly I am proving my docility towards my parents , well that is because i was talking to a person yesterday. He had some issue with some thing that his parents did allow him to do and i had a prolonged talk with him . And at that time i realized something. I realized that a person could go to any extent if he doesn't get what he desires even if the it is his or her parents in this case . And that second i realized how world is changing how they don't understand that they are there birth giver's, you couldn't have managed to come in the world without them.....

Even if the issue is big or small it doesn't matter but the hostility shown once will always remain like a qualification in your resume......And never forget you didn't come on earth by your own....and please stop being american's........

A New City

How could i forget the day when i had to leave Delhi and plan my future in the Beautiful city of Bangalore.At that time there were no emotions nothing of that such feeling had cropped into my mind,there was no despair no anger no happiness though there was one thing which was there and which also stayed for a long while was curiosity.At that time i didn't know whether i was following my dreams or i was joking or kidding with my own self.It was that feeling which took me along the commencement of my sojourn in Bangalore.......

I still remember when i first came to my paying guest accommodation,my parents left me in Bangalore 15 days before the commencement of my college and as you know i was alone in the big city just like a sheep in the big city.I had nothing to do,my room had a TV on which i spend my maximum amount of time i had books to read but still it needs a little more to make me read , lock me in a room with only a book then i may give it a shot.Those miserable 15 days try to change my mind but i was sturdy as a horse.I had got myself a goal.

Finally my college started and i found myself busy in assignments and tests,that was the day where all my curiosity went and i came to terms with my new city.I started feeling more comfortable maybe because i had friends now or maybe i had some role in this city.I was happy again.....

It is sure that where ever you go you will miss the city born and bought up in but you have to make way for your own good and keep it aside and focus on what you got in your hand and rest is assured......

Embarkation

Well many of you would be thinking that here we have another wannabe blogger who wants to

prove a point,blog around try to be one of us and one day he comes across that its no more in fashion so he decides to quit blogging and starts following his dazed path of unending abeyance.........exactly that's what i have come here for........

Well blogging was always never ever in my list its just that the tortures holidays of mine choked me to get into such stuff for which it took me 20 days out of 30 days holiday to get into negotiation with my own terms.Well gladly i started some how with some inspiration...........

Now you guys would be thinking why the tittle Zebra crossing , not just because i like chris rock and he played a character of a zebra in the movie madagascar , though that was the first thing which came into my mind when i planned to do this animosity.but actually it was the message that it gives to us as masses and as an individual that one or the other place we have to stop we can't just run with our dreams on the cost jeopardizing others ,and as someone has said don't just create happy face create happy faces...

I hope i am successful with what i have come to achieve......

And please if any spelling mistakes don't point at me and laugh......i will curse you to death.......

Soon i will come with more stuff so stick around..........